Day11.

Happy 11 day old my dear baby Alastair ^^ A random pix of him when he's half awake haha. Didn't took much pix of him recently. It's his appt date agn. This time hub didn't tag along cos he need to work. So mom and me brought bby to his check up and his jaundice went up again despite we trying hard to "suntan" him in the morning. So my poor baby have to go back check up again 5days later, which means taking blood test again..... Went home, wash up and put baby on my bed to nap tgt with him cos mom went out for awhile. I couldn't sleep at all cos cos my baby likes to make a lot of noises when sleeping lol! 

It's only day11 of my confinement and I'm dying to drink cold drinks. Totally no appetite to eat at all and I got no idea why. Whenever I see food, I feel so bloated. Even when I see those yummy food on ig, I don't feel hungry at all. What's wrong with me...... I used to love food so much! When I think of those oily food, I feel like puking.... But hor even when I lost appetite I still haven reach my pre-pregnancy weight. I gained a total of 12kg during my whole 38wk pregnancy, which marks 56kg. First time in my life I hit the digit 5 haha. On the day of discharge which is day4 after my cesarean, I weigh myself at the hosp and was 52kg. Pretty depressed to see the weigh, my tummy was all bloated too. I look pregnant still lol! Then yesterday I went to my post pregnancy check up with Dr Chen, I was 49kg. Today i weigh myself at home I'm 48kg. So still 4kg away from my pre pregnancy weight. Wish my weight can be at 44kg during baby full month. Hahahaha fat hope la hor cos I can't do any exercise at all due to cesarean. Only can drink more red date to detox out everything. Going to pharmacy after I'm done with my confinement to buy fish oil, vitamins and detox tea. Went to google about ways to prevent hair loss after delivery, hoping all those method helps cos I can't bear to cut short my hair haha. My hair already very less if continue to drop I think I'll become bald lol! 

Day8.

Finally a day I get out for some breather, only drew my brow and eyeliner cos I know hub is gng to nag at me if I put on any face make up. So no foundation for this whole month till baby's full month! :) Every pix can make you look pretty with gaogao de filter ^^ 

Bby is 8 day old today! Which means my confinement day8 also, and the 8th day my hair is not wash with shampoo ://// Counting down 20 more days. Time is passing so slow...... I miss all the delicious food and cold drinks. Since the day I deliver bby Alastair out, I didn't have much appetite to eat. Prolly cos I give birth via cesarean that's why I always feel bloated and don't feel hungry. But I still finished up all the confinement food my mom cooked for me cos I feel that she spend a lot of effort to take care of me and my bby, so I must learn to appreciate. I feel so bad that I can't help my mom out with anything cos she want me to rest well during this one month. She did all the cooking, washing and house chores all by herself. My dad do help her out when he's back at work. Aches me so much. I can't wait to bring her out to have nice food when I'm done with my confinement :) I still got to repeat this again and again that I'm so so so thankful to have my family helping me out during my confinement period. I'll have serious depression if I'm all alone by myself. 

Anyway today is bby Alastair check up date. So hub mom and I wake up early to go to the polyclinic. But we spent 20min waiting for a damn cab. Lesson learnt. Always call cab beforehand when bringing a newborn out. The check up was all done pretty fast because newborn babies all have priority. I didn't dare to see bby Alastair have his inject, ache my heart.. He's a brave boy, he only cry when the needle is injected to his little feet cos he got startled as he's sleeping. My poor boy have to be injected again on Friday to check on his jaundice cos it went up :( Took a taxi back home with mom and bby Alastair while hub head to work. Had some rest before mom went out to buy clothes for bby Alastair cos all the clothes we bought for him were way too big lol! My tiny baby. The 2h left alone with him was a disaster cos I'm still so bad at handling newborn. Fed him milk but I couldn't burp him despite patting his back for 30min. End up he vomit out the milk cos I didn't help him to burp properly. Sorry bby, mommy is still learning to take good care of you. I promise to learn well when my wound gets better :( wipe him a little and changed into new clothing and try coaxing him to bed but he doesn't want to sleep at all. He whine whenever I placed him down at the playpen, so I ended up carrying him in my arms for 2h before I make milk for him to drink again. He gets hungry every 2h, so he'd cry whenever his milk time is here haha. 

I feel so bad whenever I think I can handle him well alone, but ended up creating a mess. It's like my bby is so suey to have a mommy like me, everything also so clumsy. I feel even worst when ppl comment how badly I done. Sigh.. 

Anyway I think during this period of time, husband support is the most important. The concern, care and help from your partner is going to make you feel so much better and keep you going on. At the end, everything is going to be worth it :') 

Day6

Hello! Baby Alastair is 6 days old today. I'm still learning how to be a mommy.. Learnt how to feed him and burp him today. Feel contented haha. He look so cute in every angle. I think every parents feel that their child looks cute in any ways. Even when he poo or burp I find it very cute hehe. He's back home tgt with me on Friday afternoon. Blur hub make a mistake in his birth cert lol! So we had to make a trip down to ica when my confinement ended to change his birth timing. 22 more days to end of confinement. I miss all the good food and cold drinks, miss having a really nice bath. Hub say he's gng to bring me to eat seafood once my confinement ended yay! We are gng to find a day and head to jb for my pedi meni session and his massage session. We can't wait! I also can't wait for baby Alastair full month party. Going to be a real simple ones! :) he's gng to be one week old tomorrow, how time flies? 

Next thurs is my appt with Dr Chen to check my wound. Hopefully it's healing well so I can start my post pregnancy massage soon! 

My little precious is having his nap now after being awake since 8+. Glad that he's adjusting to morning and night time. His first night at my place was a nightmare haha. He didn't know when is morning when is night time. I always sleep till late afternoon during my pregnancy and sleep in only at around 4am every night. So I think this is the 胎教 he learn from me. Oops! My poor mommy had such a long night with him till 4:30am then he's willing to stop crying and sleep. 

Will be back to update about little previous again. Thanks for reading! 

Baby Alastair

Hello Baby Alastair! Welcome to the world. Finally the long awaited day arrived. Baby Alastair was borned on 21st Oct 2014 via c-section weighing 2.68kg. My tiny baby! 

Many of my friends and relatives asked why I opt for c-section because I wanted to have natural birth in the beginning. Because I went for my weekly check up on Tuesday morning (21.10.2014) as usual with hub, Dr Chen which is my gynae told us that baby's weight is not gaining and his waterbag level dropped till 4.8 which is pretty low. His fetal movement also become lesser due to the lesser water in take he has. So I did a CTG test and his movement and heartbeat is lesser and lower than usual. So Dr Chen ask if I wanted to induced labour or go for c-section. Without second thoughts I opt for c-section because I'm afraid induced labour might take a long time and ended up in emergency c-section. Hub and me went back home to bath and pack my bag and we went to Mount A for admission. Everything within an hour and I was admitted into my ward while waiting for my operation time. The nurse spray a medicine into my anus so I could clear my bowel. The feeling when she insert the medicine caused pretty much discomfort to me. Less than 5min I could feel my stomach aching so I rush to the toilet and cleared everything out. Wanted to take a nap but I couldn't fall asleep at all. My operation was supposed to be at 4pm but it was delayed due to an emergency c-section Dr Chen had to go. So I waited till 4.30pm and two nurses pushed me into the operation room. Had GA which is full body epidural which puts me to sleep because I got no courage to witness the whole process. I fell asleep within seconds and the next moment I'm awake everything is done. Baby is out, stitches is done. I couldn't feel anything due to the numbing. I was being pushed back to my ward and I saw my dad, hub and my parents-in-law. Nurse pushed my baby for me to see. Even till now I couldn't believed i carried a baby inside me for 38weeks and I delivered him out.. Im still pretty clumsy in carrying him and I feel that newborn is so fragile. It feels like I might hurt him anytime lol. Anyway I still look pregnant even after giving birth. I wonder when will all the flabby tummy go away. Feeling quite upset and depressed about it :( Hub wanted to stay overnight and accompany me but he wasn't allowed to because I'm staying in 2-bedded and no one is allowed to stay over and accompany me. So hub left at 1030pm and I went to sleep. I wake up quite a few times but I still manage to get enough rest. 

I was being given one hot milo to drink in the early morning. Around 9plus nurses came with the baby and ask me to try breast feeding. I sucks at it and I don't think baby drink till any milk because I can't feel that I've any milk supply in me. Around 20min baby is being pushed back to his nursery and I continue resting till my family and hub family came. My afternoon is spent with relatives and friends visiting me. Hub went back at 3plus cos he's tired and he's not coming back till next morning. So I felt pretty lonely and emo hahahaha. Emotional mummy hor. I was being asked to try standing up and walk to the toilet back and forth. I swear the pain is killing me. It feels like my stitches are tearing apart. I feel giddy and my vision went blur when I walked back so the nurse hold on to me to rest on the toilet bowl first. Second time walking is also hard. I hope tomorrow my wound would feel better and walking would be easier. I can't wait to have my post pregnancy massage. My tummy feels like a balloon with lots of air inside. I keep farting non-stop :x My throat is hurting due to dehydration I guess. My neck is also aching because I couldn't sleep well. I can't wait to be discharge and go back home.... Hate to me staying in the hosp alone.. 

Hi babybump. You are officially wk38 now, why you still don't want to come out?! :( Took my maternity leave way too early now I'm stuck at home feeling so bored everyday. It's just me and my bump..... I can't wait to have a baby embrace in my arms. It's so true that the last few weeks of waiting is the hardest because you don't know when yr baby is coming out. I'm all prepared for the long hours of labour already. I really pray hard that I doesn't need emergency c-section. Baby please have a smooth delivery ok. Everyone is waiting for you to come out. Loves you ^^ 

Went for my weekly check up last thurs and realized bby isn't gaining weight for the past one week. He's still remaining at 2.5kg which is pretty small. So I had to return back for check up tomorrow to see if he's growing over the past few days. I hope he's growing after I had eaten so much protein food for the past few days. Fighting bby! If he's still not growing then my doctor is gng to do induce labour for me. All along I wanted to opt for natural birth so I could start exercise faster but if bby had to be induce I would go for c-section as induce labour is a lot more painful and there is high chances I might need to have emergency c-section. Just hope bby can choose to come out on its own instead of being induced or operated. Everyday I'm praying I'd get real contractions soon! I'm hitting wk37 tomorrow. Getting nearer to my due date. Daddy Mummy want to see you soon! 

Full term.

Back to update my blog agn. Currently I'm at my 35wk 5d pregnancy. Hitting my full-term in 2 days time yay! Started my leave earlier than usual because doctor advised to bed rest more since baby's position is pretty low. So I was hoping baby Alastair can pop out soon once he is full term hehe. Went to baby fair at expo yesterday with hub, Xueqi and Marcus. Thankfully to have them if not we wound not know what to buy at there. Basically it's like a war between all parents lol!! Pretty scary to see how those pregnant lady with big belly like mine fighting for those really cheap items. We spent around 1k on baby's stroller, playpen, sterilizer and milk bottle. Some 有的没有的. Still feel that there's a lot of items I want to buy at there but I walked till pretty tired so give up searching alrd. Most worth buying should be the Graco playpen which we got at only $139 and comes with anti-dustmic mattress. We should have gotten two instead of one :( After looking at a lot of stroller within our $300-$400 budget, we choosed Capella. Cost $339 which the handle can be pushed forward so baby could face us, also the stroller baby can fully lie down when he's still a new born. It's better for newborn's backbone. I can't wait for his stroller to be delivered to my in law's house hehe. 

The kiasus parents which is us, went to kiddy palace today to buy more baby stuffs. Got him his pacifiers and baby towel. Didn't manage to buy till his pacifier yesterday because once it's stock, it's oos agn. Look how fast those parents are lol!!! The pampered daddy got for baby Alastier a playmat. Hahaha. Haven even born jiu buy playmat for him to roll lol! 

Will be back to update agn once his baby cot is set up and all items delivered to us. Thanks for reading! ^^