Day8.

Finally a day I get out for some breather, only drew my brow and eyeliner cos I know hub is gng to nag at me if I put on any face make up. So no foundation for this whole month till baby's full month! :) Every pix can make you look pretty with gaogao de filter ^^ 

Bby is 8 day old today! Which means my confinement day8 also, and the 8th day my hair is not wash with shampoo ://// Counting down 20 more days. Time is passing so slow...... I miss all the delicious food and cold drinks. Since the day I deliver bby Alastair out, I didn't have much appetite to eat. Prolly cos I give birth via cesarean that's why I always feel bloated and don't feel hungry. But I still finished up all the confinement food my mom cooked for me cos I feel that she spend a lot of effort to take care of me and my bby, so I must learn to appreciate. I feel so bad that I can't help my mom out with anything cos she want me to rest well during this one month. She did all the cooking, washing and house chores all by herself. My dad do help her out when he's back at work. Aches me so much. I can't wait to bring her out to have nice food when I'm done with my confinement :) I still got to repeat this again and again that I'm so so so thankful to have my family helping me out during my confinement period. I'll have serious depression if I'm all alone by myself. 

Anyway today is bby Alastair check up date. So hub mom and I wake up early to go to the polyclinic. But we spent 20min waiting for a damn cab. Lesson learnt. Always call cab beforehand when bringing a newborn out. The check up was all done pretty fast because newborn babies all have priority. I didn't dare to see bby Alastair have his inject, ache my heart.. He's a brave boy, he only cry when the needle is injected to his little feet cos he got startled as he's sleeping. My poor boy have to be injected again on Friday to check on his jaundice cos it went up :( Took a taxi back home with mom and bby Alastair while hub head to work. Had some rest before mom went out to buy clothes for bby Alastair cos all the clothes we bought for him were way too big lol! My tiny baby. The 2h left alone with him was a disaster cos I'm still so bad at handling newborn. Fed him milk but I couldn't burp him despite patting his back for 30min. End up he vomit out the milk cos I didn't help him to burp properly. Sorry bby, mommy is still learning to take good care of you. I promise to learn well when my wound gets better :( wipe him a little and changed into new clothing and try coaxing him to bed but he doesn't want to sleep at all. He whine whenever I placed him down at the playpen, so I ended up carrying him in my arms for 2h before I make milk for him to drink again. He gets hungry every 2h, so he'd cry whenever his milk time is here haha. 

I feel so bad whenever I think I can handle him well alone, but ended up creating a mess. It's like my bby is so suey to have a mommy like me, everything also so clumsy. I feel even worst when ppl comment how badly I done. Sigh.. 

Anyway I think during this period of time, husband support is the most important. The concern, care and help from your partner is going to make you feel so much better and keep you going on. At the end, everything is going to be worth it :')